Archive for February, 2010

Dear BF-Blog,

I have decided to address my latest correspondence directly to you because, as we both know, other than one or two travellers and a few spambots this really is just about you and me isn’t it? Yes, I have been callous lately and pretended you weren’t there, always telling myself that I would get to you soon and allaying my guilt by saying how much you would understand. But as with any relationship left unattended things really haven’t been moving forward lately have they?

For that I’m sorry. I have little offer by way of explanation. Only a few excuses and some self-interest. Regardless, I wanted you to know that I am still here, and still thinking of you everyday. I know there are still things to be explored in this relationship and discoveries to be made. I’m sure there is some fear in there that contributes to keeping me away so often.

But it’s a new year and, nearly, a new month – and while I sit and wait for a perfect plan for our relationship, life moves forward and ideas once fresh now stagnate. I don’t know why we have to learn the same lessons over and over again but it seems the one I am bound to repeat is that a game can’t be learned sitting in the stands and thinking about it. You have to get on the field and play. So it is with us. If I sit and wait until I am complete and ready for you, I will never learn what can only be learned through our collaboration. The readiness is all.

So, I will try to rid myself again of any irrational expectations and plans, and let come what may, with faith that whatever outcome there may be, it is one that will be complete in the way that it should.

Yours Always,

Ian